Cheap and Easy

0. Who was your last text from?
Maeve. You're welcome, by the way.

1. What/who is your icon?
This is tough, because there are so many people that inspire me every day. As of right now, probably Telle Smith from The Word Alive, or Tyler Carter from Issues, just because they're so goddamned talented.

2. Relationship status?
Single and really upset about it.

3. Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yeah, I have. A year or so ago, my friend Terry passed away. We did some community theater together, and he was always just the nicest guy. I was furious that I couldn't go to the funeral, because it was halfway around the world. I miss you, dude.

4. What is your current mood?
Anxious and heartbroken. I'm fun, I swear.

5. What's your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Emma. She's thirteen now and it scares me.

6. Where do you wish you were right now?
Disney, Oklahoma, or Colorado.

7. Have a crazy side?
A more appropriate question would be "do you have a sane side?"

8. Ever had a near death experience?
Crazily enough, I had one about a week ago. There was a gas leak in my house, and without really knowing it, my dad turned the burner on. There was a really, REALLY big flash, and I said some pretty choice things. If there had been more gas - meaning if my dad had done it sooner - I'd be dead. I've had a couple others, but that one stood out to me.

9. Something you do a lot?
Music. Listening to it, singing it, writing it, it doesn't matter. It's omnipresent in my life. I like to think I'm okay at it too.

10. Angry at anyone?
Does myself count? Because yes. I'm not a hateful person, so I don't really get mad at people. But sometimes I can't help it because some people are just so dumb oh my god.

11. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Distance, and not a damned thing else.

12. When was the last time you cried?
I broke down about a week or so ago. It wasn't me being sad or upset. I was just so tired and overworked that I had no other way to cope, so I just cried.

13. What are you really good at?
Being a dork, I suppose. That, music, writing and helping people. I'm also apparently really good at hugging.

14. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
The ocean. Stars. Song lyrics.

15. What were you doing yesterday at 10 p.m.?
Showering, maybe? That, or getting into bed before midnight for the first time in about a month.

16. Do you prefer light or dark hair on the opposite sex?
This is really difficult, harder than it should be. I'm completely enamored with blondes because their hair is just so pretty, but I think I'm more of a dark hair person. Redheads, brunettes, and black hair all seem to stand out.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My dad.

18. What are your favorite bands?
*gingerly opens Pandora's Box*
The Word Alive, Issues, Trophy Wives, Sayings, PVRIS, As It Is, Handguns, Breathe Carolina, Memphis May Fire, Four Year Strong, Beartooth (I cannot express my love for Tooth in words), We Came As Romans, Architects, A Day To Remember, Pierce the Veil, Chunk! No, Captain Chunk!, Oceans Ate Alaska... I could go on.

19. What are you doing right now?
I'm currently in the fetal position writing this post. Kind of a stupid question. Who's sitting here writing this and simultaneously composing an opera or making waffles or something like that?

20. Who do you trust 100% right now?
Maya, Gibb, Max, Cecilia. Probably Maeve and Fonts as well, though we've kind of fallen out of touch.

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
My uncle gave me this jersey two or three years ago. Super comfortable, and nice to write in.

22. Heavy metal music?
This is tough. I listen to a lot of metalcore, but that's about as heavy as I'll get. No deathcore or black metal, that stuff is terrifying. But I do love me some good ol' metal. Screaming in music is so raw and powerful; you get points across that you normally would struggle to do.

23. Who was the last person you hugged?
Maya.

24. Is there anything you're hiding from someone?
My feelings, maybe. Nothing bad or harmful. Just internal stuff.

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
A few stand out.

26. What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping. Writing faster.

27. What are you listening right now?
Oceans, Part II by Crywolf.

28. You need new jeans. Quick, where do you go?
American Eagle. They're the only place in existence that has my size readily available. 28x34/36es are pretty hard to find.

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Claire.

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
I've been told that I get a lot quieter and my voice changes. I don't notice it myself but apparently that's what happens.

31. What is your eye color?
Hazel. In good lighting, the green is super visible and it makes me really happy.

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Dylan Bedford. I love him so much, it's unfathomable.

33. Who was the last person to make you angry?
The guy in Boston who plowed into me today, since he was too busy texting to look up, avoid slamming my shoulder from behind, or say sorry. Dick.

34. Hello Kitty or Dora?
Dora all the way. No competition.

35. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
Curly. SO curly. Used to be curlier.

36. Hug anyone of the opposite sex in the past 24 hours?
I hugged everybody in the Enharmonix today, so yeah, a few.

37. One thing you want right now?
Certainty, or peace of mind.

38. Will you fall in love in the next few months?
I'd have to fall out of it first.

39. What does the 5th text in your inbox say?
"Such wisdom." -Me to Max.

40. Are you worried about the future?
I worry about it constantly. More than I should.

41. Are you happy with life right now?
I am. It's a beautiful gift, and I can't let it go to waste, no matter what happens or how I feel. It's important to remind myself that on a daily basis. I've got it pretty good, no matter what I think.

42. Are you currently jealous?
Yeah. I am.

43. Who's your best girl friend?
This is tough. Claire, Maya, Cecilia, Max, Maeve, Megan, Sawyer, and a few others are up there, but I'm pretty lucky to have a lot of amazing female friends. Love y'all.

44. Do you forgive or forget?
I forgive. I let a lot of things go (see #10) but that doesn't mean I can't remember what happens to me. If you do me wrong, I'll do everything to make things right between us, but that doesn't mean I've forgotten what happened.

45. What do you miss the most about elementary school?
My class was absolutely tiny, so I got to know everyone and be friends with most of the kids in my grade. That insular feeling was nice.

46. Favorite Disney Channel show?
Phineas and Ferb was actually really clever and smart. That, or The Suite Life of Zack and Cody.

47. Who are three of your best guy friends?
Gibb, Fonts, Tom. Love you guys. Get souped for the show, that new cover is sick.

48. What are you looking forward to?
Being in Disney in a week. Copious pictures will be taken.

49. Does anyone like you right now?
People keep telling me so, so I'll go with that.

50. Lyrics to the song you're listening to right now?
"Run your fingers through my hair/Whispering softly in my ear/My arms are trembling, I'm so scared/Cause it's not the same without you here." -Aporia, by Crywolf.

-C
P.S. Now that I have a little free time, I'll try to keep up with this blog more often
he lied